I lived thinking that I was serving God. I had a sincere desire to know more of God, and I was committed to studying the Scriptures. Then came a trial in my life, when I found myself completely empty. The Word I meditated and on which I thought was accomplishing something had no true effect on my life. I got to the place of desperation, and it was in my frustration that God became very real in my life. It was there that He gave me the tools to confront what I did not know, because I was perishing for lack of knowledge.